onsdag 23. april 2014

Impatience and patience. Day 425






I have decided to walk with this word - patience, form some time.


Here is what i have gotten so far.   Enjoy:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into this reaction of impatience where I start to think these  same thoughts over and over again and I only end up in fear of never making "it" and create disappointment in myself .
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start thoughts like " I must have food", " I must have  a decent life" , " No one can ever be allowed to hurt me" and direct thoughts of self interest as I give into this sort of thinking where I then  later blame it on egoism and I project out that rich people are the bad guys and tell myself that they are sending me these thoughts, from their ego, when it is from myself  or that they have these thoughts or similar projections only to let ego fool and misguide me from breathing and awareness and being here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into this type of reactions from emotional impatience and the energy that follows that I let occupy my mind so that I start to give into energies like unconditionally just because it gives me a false hope of change.   
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from patience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the backchats that goes on in my mind when I imagine the word patience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself be fooled by my ego that only want to chase down a road of selfishness and greed and destruction when I should be stopping ego from reacting within me from taking control of my mind and my life again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start to give into impatience as I would think that there is so much work and chores to be done and I start to blame the system and have thoughts going of like voices in my head "They are starving" or " They are dying of  hunger" and " Lets hurry up to solve problems", and I go into this role of being impatience and stressing myself and making everything difficult and creating reaction of self judgment and blame within myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have hallucinations on how I act out impatience and seeing sense of horror and abuse going and I picture hurt and abuse going on that is making my life miserable with sabotaging and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into emotions l state where I produce backchats that I relate direct to this picture of self hurt and self judging because I am acting out impatience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I let impatience win in the battle between patience and impatience that is could picture like  role play in my head from my memories and role figures that makes me realize that I need to slow myself down in general and that I need to bring slow motion to everything that I do, with my life and my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let impatience win because I give into emotions in the first place and I would let impatience  get the best of me from my starting point of being emotional  within my whole body and going into reaction from there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my other starting point where I would fear having thoughts and  I would fear my own ego that I knew would bring its own justice towards me that is just evil and cruel, and I would go into paranoia from there and I would start judging myself and blaming myself for fearing the paranoia inn itself.  




When and as I see myself giving into reactions or thoughts as I take on impatience. I stop and I Breathe.  I realize that thoughts from impatience within me is very egoistic thoughts or reactions, where I end up blaming  myself. I realize that I need to deal with my emotions in general in honesty, and I realize that I need to stop having impatience reactions as It is only sick. I commit myself to slowing down and to gain patience. I commit myself to gain and practice patience. I commit myself to learn patience and to become more patience. I commit myself to learn patience by living patience in practical terms. 




 When and as I see myself going into my mind where I judge myself and I blame myself for having thoughts or experiences of being and acting out impatience I stop and I breathe. I realize that I very fast start to blame myself on being impatience and I realize that I judge myself on my memories of being impatient. I realize that self judging and self blame is purely sabotaging and self damage. I realize that I should clean up my attachments to this word from my memories with self forgiveness. I commit myself to stop self sabotaging and to stop living impatience. I commit myself to self honesty in every second.  










 

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tirsdag 22. april 2014

Resentment towards mature women. Day 424




Inn this post I will go through my meeting and talk or just observing the mature women, that I have create   resentment towards. 







Enjoy: 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think  about mature women  "you are so self secure, why" and "you think you are all that" and, "just because you can be able to bake you think you own the world".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project out that "you ladies are so secure and convincing all the time" when I am missing that specific point within myself, and projecting this out with the ladies. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that I to can be self secure or have self trust within and feel safe where I am at.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to envy this particular notion that I would imagine that these women have or that I imagine that they reflect that I miss with myself and that I would go into reactions over this envy at them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is something underneath this desire I have to blame particularly mature women and that I would imagine that it is rooted in male and female class struggle in many societies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have these resentment towards women  because I don't like the class struggle or because I think that the man  is more superior to the women and to have myself imagining that this hole resentment is grounded in ideas or power struggles like if I am a patriarch or something.   

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this whole story is founded within my desire to rule and control when I know deep within me that she is a better leader.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cling on to this idea that there need to be struggle or defiance within roles or between sexes that is simply rooted within thoughts of greed and self interest, and ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ad one and one together and come to the conclusion that I fear relationship and I fear the openness and the intimacy and the whole  thing.

When and as I see myself meeting with ladies or I find myself I any kind of contact with ladies that are mature. I stop and I breathe. I realize that If I have any more resentment or any sort of conflict with ladies I should write it out with self forgiveness. I realize that this kind of resentment have been bothering to me. I realize that I am probably only afraid of relationships and bounding. I realize that I should work with self forgiveness on the topic of relationships and expectations. I commit myself to deal with my resentment, with self forgiveness and with self honesty. I commit myself to further open up posts on relationships and expectations. I commit myself to clear out any obstacle that I have with resentment towards mature women. 

When  and as I see myself going into fear or resentment over thoughts about girls. I stop and I breathe. I realize that if I judge myself from my old past and old memories I must be able to move on from there or I might start reacting. I realize that if I want to end up depressed I can very easy go back to my memories and pick a choice to how I have lived my life before. I realize that I both want to and I need to meet with a girl. And I realize that it would be good for me to meet with a lady. I commit myself to try find a girl friend. I commit myself to do my very best to find a relationship. I commit myself to meet with girls that I find interesting and find a relationship.   





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søndag 20. april 2014

Day - 423



Living to please my parents



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into reactions where I participate in thoughts and  thinking where I tell myself that I am from here, and that I belong to my parents and to indulge in thinking and memories of growing up and interacting with my parents creating a sort of cozy imaginary pictures of dependency as was growing up and until this day when there was lots of struggle and arguments, tears and emotions to that i seam to suppress sometimes.   

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into reactions where I supply myself with such words like "he is from" or "since he belongs"  or "as if" or similar words to remind me of what creation I come from, which is my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am a mamma's boy or a papas boy and sort of favorite the one over the other, in order to gain self confidence or gain self trust or benefits with one of them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fear from giving my parents  a hug when I imagine that it is appropriate or when I feel like I need one and I fear to ask them for a hug.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I live to please my parents.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I belong to my parents
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I need to free myself from my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am lucky to share home with my parents as it saves me money.

When and as I see myself going into reactions over affection directed to my parents. I stop and I breathe. I realize that If I give into reactions or thinking related to my parents I am giving into sabotaging since thoughts and thinking is a part of the enslavement and pre - program. I realize that I should express myself and tell people what is going on. I realize that I should be more capable of expressing myself  without reacting out. I realize that I should express myself  in honesty as much as possible, and as often as I can.  I realize that self expression is the best solution to be lived. I commit myself to express more open what I experience or what I need to express. I commit myself to share with my parents what I need to share with them in honesty.  I commit myself to expression of myself as much as I can.






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torsdag 17. april 2014

Day 422 - LIG



Inventors and scientist will have a new beginning with Living income guarantee.

Living income guarantee will give people the ability to work on interventions and solutions and make discoveries, beyond what we can imagine now today. 




Living income guarantee will make it economically safe  to be a inventor and to be able to spend time for instance home in the garage, or home making inventions and still receive money.

And that is simply cool! 

It is to suspect that we will have much more cool science and inventions. As we will have a more transparent society people can do more of what they want because of economical freedom.

These inventions will make life better for millions of people take for instance the instruments that transforms salt water into drinking water. A great invention that is needed and welcome. Or the 13 year old boy in USA who discovered how to detect cancer at a  early stage with his chemistry lab.


We want new inventions. We need new inventions. The existence of this world is depending on new inventions. Water fueled engines  and sugar batteries. New solar panels, and common sense solutions.  Yes bring it on.

Now with a living income guaranteed there will be more time left for the inventor or the scientist to produce and develop inventions so that he or she can have a decent living and still make inventions. It will give them the stability and the needed money to be able to have living besides making inventions and producing inventions. It will probably create  boom out of inventions and how we live out daily lives. This sort of harassing and bullying that have been taking place and conspiracy in general that have been going on  will stop with living income guaranteed. 

What we will see with  a living income guaranteed is a growing transparent society, and lesser and lesser fear, in this world. Systems and inventions that are founded for everyone's best will be discovered and be given to people all over this world. 

And there is no doubt that inventions like water fueled engines or energy  tapping directly from the surface of this earth and all sorts of cool new inventions, will be created to come to everyone's needs and services. And the best for all life.

So join us in the equal life foundation so we can start imply these cool new inventions. And to do in future what is best for all.  

Thank you.





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